It's surprising that I blog so much now, I don't really like blogging that much. A bit mafan lor. I'd rather chat on msn or download bleach, but yeah, since I've got nothing better to do, AND BLEACH 95 ISN'T OUT (i think), here I am! XD

This post will be written in SIMPLE AND UNDERSTANDABLE ENGLISH, so that a certain MAFANGUI, will understand. LOL.


But yeah lor, those posts ain't like me. It doesn't sound like the chorlor tomboyish xiurong that I am. XD But I just feel like writing proper english for once! At least I know that my english won't deprove. X_X


ohyah, and I'm surprised that people ever read my blog. I thought that my blog was just a place to breed mosquitoes, so I gave up on it.




OKAY BACK TO BUSINESS. I don't think I felt as cheerful as I was after swimming. Qingyun didn't come today! ))): She had gastric before that, and had to be sent home. Yeah, but at least there's Charlyn to accompany me! XD But she swims so friggingly fast lah! Siao zabor. I think I really have no stamina. After swimming HALF A LAP OF FREESTYLE, I don't even have anymore strength for the rest of the lap. SO SAD RIGHT. This the consequence of not swimming for a year plus. ): I wish I could stay in Denise's house. Her house's swimming pool is so BIG AND INVITING! She stays at Queens btw, and her unit is simply lovely. Strong winds, and a view of the pool. WAAA!


Yeah, and when I made a fool of myself when I swam backstroke today. I didn't really think that anyone would go haywire while swimming backstroke. NOW I UNDERSTAND WHY. I was swimming and swimming and swimming and swallowing mouthfuls of water (-.-), and BONK, I hit something! Naturally I turned around, AND I SAW THE LADDER BEHIND ME! but the fact is that, I started in the middle of the pool!! yea, I swam SLANTED, from one end of the pool to the other. Wa, I think I really rock man. -.- At least I think no one noticed.

i think

Then had PT, and PT was as boring as usual. CAPTAIN'S BALL AGAIN. -.- I don't really fancy captain's ball cos I know that no one would throw the ball to me. Maybe it's because I don't even bother to snatch the ball lah -_________-

AND THE WORSE, SPIRE TODAY. WHAT THE SHIT CAN, I REALLYYYYYYY HATE SPIRE.

Firstly, I realised that we do not even need to filter the orange juice, since the microcentrifuge can handle EVERYTHING. For those people who do not know what a microcentrifuge is, it is this.

cool huh! This little baby spins suspensions at reallyyyyy high speeds, the highest being 130000revolutions/minute, so that the supernatent (liquid) and the pellets (sediments) would be seperated. lol, I learnt all the technical terms from the labtech. :) She's a nice lady, but I think I made her attend class late today, cos I kept holding her back XDXD We were supposed to leave at 1700, but ended up leaving at 1730 instead. I hope she isn't mad at me though.

Im too lazy to post details about today's SPIRE, all I know is that, IT WAS A COMPLETE FAILURE LAH CAN. We really need the glass cuvets or whatever that's called. If not all our readings would just fall within 400range, when what we need is a 200. That's damn sad.

and yeah, boarded the wrong bus today. 171 instead of 961. so clever. alighted at newton and went to tiong. lalalala, so here i am now.

bought lays for tmr's teachers day! i hope i eat my fill during tmr s pizza party. i guess it should be okay. :) i bought bbq though. i hope no one minds. AH HECK ITS STILL POTATO CHIPS.

AND IM GOING BACK TO DUNMAN TMR!! OHHHHHHHH-YEAH. XD

It's been a rather long time since I posted, again, and this blog is starting to weed. Yeah, but there isn't any interesting events that happened this week. Either that, or I'm too lazy to remember.

Which reminds me, Laziness is starting to settle in.

READER'S WARNING: This will be one of those oh-its-the-end-of-the-world-for-me kind of post, except that it won't be too depressing.



Crap, Life. Obviously, it can be full of ups and downs at certain points, but nevertheless, we still have to live it all. I still remember the times in Primary School when I was without a care in the world, and I was, THE One. I could make decisions for myself quickly and decisively, and not regret it in the end. Perhaps it was due to gain in confidence, as I tirelessly worked my way up the academic and social ladder in my school. This attitude of mine was engraved into me, all the way till Primary 6, when of course, there was the dreaded PSLE. Fortunately for me, I did pretty much well.

Secondary School. The drastic turning point. From a confident little girl, I slowly progressed to being a normal, low-lying adolescent. This was the period where our senses sharpen, where we start to notice things. What people think about you and your gestures or actions; Academic Competition among Peers; Peer Pressure. For me, the last opinion certainly had a great impact on my overall upgrowing. The desire to be accepted was expressed through tears shed in the middle of the night; My cowardice was shown through my ever-obliging attitude, despite of the disadvantages that I may suffer. My thirst for acceptance made me grow numb, moulded me into a puppet to the society. I was there for manipulation, and what was worse, I accepted that barbaric horrible fact.

I was a torn child

Now. It's a new beginning again. Junior College, Integrated Programme. As IP students, we are expected to have self-motivation, strive to score and be the country's future leaders. But why, why is my heart so willing, but flesh so weak? I know what to do, but yet fear and procastinate, to the very end. There is always this haunting notion that I may fail in the process of changing, that's why I would rather stay stagnant as always. But by doing that, am I improving? No, I'll just stay the normal plain little child that I am. I'll just be overshadowed and overpowered, pushed around, by those who have greater determination and aspiration than I do. And while they continue to climb up Life's ladder, all I can do is cower in fear of falling. My mind has created illusions in my perception of the world. To me, every step is hot charcoal; carcasses are strewn all over the floor; and the light high above is blinding.

but yet, I always miss out those who are still struggling to work their way up.


Yes, the human mind does work wonders. It can bring you to the heights of success and bathe in its everlasting glory; or send you plummeting through the sea of failure, forever sunken in guilt and regret.

I just seem to have this inexplainable feeling, and I can't seem to express it.

Just slap me senseless.

Haha, its always like this.

Once you have something, you won't cherish it until it's been taken away.

Yepyep, like this blog! Initially, I was pretty excited over it and all, but now its just normal to me. I come whenever I want to and when I need to rant about stuff, like now. Yes, I enjoy talking about senseless nonsense.


Ohwell, I wanted to spam about Mr Steven Lee the day before Trigo Test. Really, I felt simply horrible on that day. I couldn't even complete one simple question in the Math Textbook! Being the low self-esteem person that I am, I blamed it all upon myself: why can't I understand this simple concept properly, why must I have so many careless mistakes. All the standards.

And then I proceeded to blame Mr Lee, for not teaching us properly. It's true, he does not teach maths properly. I feel that he has very little confidence of himself when he teaches, and he isn't well prepared at all: committing all the small basic mistakes that leave us, students, confused. He's actually rather nice, looks easily bullyable (o_O), and docile. Who would have guessed that his teachings are so bad...


And yeah, if this continues, I don't know whether I will be the first one to scream at him. Because sometimes, I am really tempted to do it.


Yes, I know I have lousy bitching skills. But I just don't believe in dwelling too much on the horrible sides of life.


...也许你也会看到令你惊吓下的一面.

oh gawsh, I should stop sleeping so late that often. But the problem is, I likesleeping late. Duh, that's why I'm here now blogging at ahem, 2:24am in the morning. (:

Hmm, I should seriously do something about my slow productivity rate. I procastinate too much, and that's bad, because that will cause me to be lethargic and not have any mood to do work at all. And my command of english is lousy. I dont seem to be able to type proper, content-ful (-.-) sentences. This is just crap shit.

Yeah, and I nearly collapsed in Plaza Singapura today. Cramps acted up again. Sheesh, they simply do not fail in spoiling my entire day. And other's too. I feel kinda guilty, but also thankful that they were there for me. ^^ They, refering to my DHS friends! Jocelyn, Cynthia and Zuxin! YAY YOU GUYS ROCK THE WORLD. XDXD.

Well, firstly we were at Long Johns, and yeah just crapped about random stuff. School, BGR (a little) (lol,simply not a topic for us, hopelesses [loll, ya my english suckss], to talk about), and... my history essay! Oh gawd I really should get a history textbook like Cynthia's. She knows so much about history lah! The French Revolution (she can practically recite the whole monarchy), and some Maozedong crappo, and hmm, yeah the Nazi Hitler stuff. It got pretty graphic after a while, and Zuxin was covering herself up HEHE. That is just like her lah, but well, it was a little too graphic. About dead bodies littered on the floors, piled up like pyramids in the gas rooms, and how that wheelchaired old man was practically flung out of the balcony and strewn all over the floor. Okay, I should stop.


Yepyep, and also comments on school! LOL, Cynthia's class has super funny guys, especially the um, bisexual Weifu. -.- He's rather interesting, the fact that he has an interest towards guys makes me go o.O haha, I bet that will happen to anyone huh. I shall elaborate that to Minlu one day ^^

Yeah, watched Click! too. It was veryyy nice, a little too much sexual content (NO NUDITY MIND YOU) and was rather touching. It made me a bit guilty about wanting to go out during this National Day holiday. But well, I shall touch on that later. Zuxin cried a bit during the end ):,and I teared a little too. It was just touching lah yah. It's a nice movie though, go watch it!


Yeah, and now the CRAMPS. They came in wavesss after the movie ended, and I just sprinted to the toilet. What the shit it was full when I went in, and I was left crouching and standing, and cursing and swearing at how slow the people in there shitted. But yeah, finally got a cubicle and I could have just died there.

I HATE BLOGGER.

the comment on top was ON PURPOSE. the content below was so considerately DELETED for I dontknowwhy reasons. -.- I hate blogger, really hate you. That was the most important content!

okay, I shall be straight to the point.

I really thank Cynthia, Zuxin and Jocelyn for staying by me when I had the cramps while I was waiting for my parents. Really touched and grateful to all of you! The pain subsided a lot, thanks to you guys and your help. You all rock the world man!! XDXD True friends forever in my heart. ^^ <333

oh tralalala, it is late in the middle of the night on the 7th of August.

Screw this day, I bet I'm gonna so totally flunk my geography test. But I'll be confident of my MI test though. Ah, let's not talk about MI now.


Anyway, I don't know why I can't perform during tests. ): Is it because I fluster too much? Most of the time, I guess I just don't read the questions properly. That's rather sad, because it puts all my days of hard studying down to waste and I end up having screwed up good-for-nothing marks. Oh pooh. ):

Shan't be pessimistic now. Tomorrow will be a brand new day! It's supposedly the last day of school, although I'll appreciate it more if there was no IH essay and no Bio test. Sheesh.

Shoot, I'm getting paranoid again. I seem to think too much into things sometimes. Oh well, don't care about that anymore. Gonna... hmm, see what I can do now during this dead of night.



And yes, I have school tomorrow. Ohohoho.

ohohoho.

xiuxian is a baka idiot! xD

anyway, there wasn't anything fun today. at least nothing that i could remember. :S haii, this post will get kind of boring!


helped to teach the taiwanese scholars shooting today. lol, yeah my chinese sucks big time. i kept stuttering and talking in that ultra weird manner, so i just reverted to english instead. at least they could understand more. PHEW. but oh well, some of them couldnt get the leg position right; some of them couldnt get the elbow position right; and some of them couldnt get hm, anything, right. hahaha, not really lah, all of them were quite okay. One of the girls could get 9, and even 10s! WOOTS.


yeah and the taiwanese scholars were really cute. the way they talk is really cool lah, and some of the jokes they crack are rather unique. and at least they make sense -.- hahaha, dont care, but it was fun all the way. ^^




yepyep went back home and to the playground cos xiulun was there. hahaha, amy was organizing a party then. but amy wasnt there -.- yeah, but i didnt really eat the food, just ate the nasilemak that seekai gave me from shooting festival. :D taught ethel math, talked to the others about ethel's dsa, and played with bungy, THE DOG. now i shall be adding something in the form of a SYNOLOGY. HAHA REVISION FOR MI LAH HUH.

p1. I kept being licked by bungy, the chihuahua, and i dont like it.
p2. bungy is a chihuahuha.
c1. i dont like chihuahuas.

WAAAAAAAAAAA, so disgusting lah! it kept licking my hand with its rough tongue and i can see trails of saliva on my hand (YUCCK) and yeah, i was seriously traumatised. i couldnt even stand up lah. ARGHHHHHHHHHH.



yes, and im not supposed to be online, im supposed to be doing my math, and chiong essay outlines later. i dont like hwk man. but yeah, who likes hwk lah. byebye.

xiurong's an idiot. she keeps stealing the com. from her sisters.
ppl, do not pass the com. to her if she says that she needs to use it.
or else you will NEVER have it back for the rest of the day.

-xiuxian<333-