SHOCK AND HORROR

today was a shocking and horrible day. during shooting that is.

I was shooting, as usual, in the range. Since I reached the lane at a rather late time, all my other team members were nearly done except me! Who just started! So I was really focused during training today. I was standing at my lane... and trying to get that sinking feeling in my legs that shows that I am really stable. Then I held my gun, and pushed the butt plate firmly back onto my arm, lifted the gun, cheeked down and started dry-firing. I was focusing on every standing position I had....

I decided to check if my butt plate was really firm, so I turned my head around. Yep it was... but from the HINT OF MY EYE, I saw this BROWN thing crawling on my shoulder. IT CAN'T BE WHAT I THOUGHT IT WAS. I put down my gun, and continued checking. If I could I would turn my head 360 degrees to check WHAT THE HELL IT WAS that was on my body but of course I can't because I am only human, not an owl.

AND THEN I SAW IT, IT WAS IT WAS IT WAS IT WAS IT WAS THAT BIG STINKIN' IDIOTIC INSECT IN THE WHOLE ENTIRE WORLD!!! A STINKIN' COCKROACH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this is what xiurong felt when she saw the stupid creature. The next time I saw it it was ON MY PANT LEG so I reckoned it CRAWLED ALONG MY BACK TO GET DOWN THERE. I was seriously, in PANIC, and no one was helping me!?!?? Yenning could only stand there and Shermain had the audacity to say "WA SO COOL" omg I wanted to strangle her T___T I was kinda jumping up and down and wondering why that stupid insect wouldn't drop, it must have suckers for legs. Then! It CRAWLED UPWARD, and THAT DOES IT, I SMACKED THE DAMN THING DOWN MY PANTLEG WITH MY GLOVE. Grrrr, Why didn't I do that earlier???? Well it did get off my body and started scrambling on the ground. I ORDERED Leonard to COME OVER AND KILL THAT THING, but he still wanted to shoot it with the air pistol. Come on, by the time you come back with that awesome weapon of yours that cockroach would have already GONE.

Thankfully the cockroach was rather stupid. I saw it scurry to the wall and it sort of hit the wall and landed up on its back with legs in the air, giving Leonard ample time to choose a proper gun which was a cylinder one to boot. but well... all of us were chiding Leonard for bringing such a good gun to kill such an inferior creature, there even was a debate on whether he should kill it with just air or pellets?! I was like, JUST GET IN AND SQUASH THE DAMN THING.

Benevolent Yenning and Dilly didn't want to kill the cockroach but I was like, AIYA JUST STEP ON IT LAR. And yea, that was what Leonard did, which received protests from the two girls. Zzzz... Cockroaches have been living since prehistoric times, they don't die so easily. If dinosaurs can't kill them, and neither can the Big Bang, NO ONE CAN.

Yeah but well, the cockroach went out cold, and Leonard swept it out of the range. Hurray for him! ....and come to think of it, I think this is the SECOND TIME a cockroach landed on me. The first time wasn't that bad, it was UNDER MY SHOE. And I ORDERED Zhirong to kill it, and he had exactly the same reaction as Leonard, just that he didn't bring a pistol out, he sauntered towards me like some Godfather saying " aiya cockroach only... " I wanted to smack him.

Post-Exam reflections

"During your study period, I have never nagged at you. You also don't want me to do that right? But when I see this kind of results, there are two possibilities: either you never study or your studying method is wrong. But I must believe that you are smart right? I have seen it before in your primary school days. I really admire your drive during your primary school days, when you teach your friends and when you study on your own, and I believe that you can do it, because you have shown it to me before. It is not that you have become more slack, it is because of the change in environment. NJC is a place of independent learning, and you also have so much more activities. When you do badly in Sec 3, I can understand, because you need time to adapt. But if now you are also doing badly, then you must start reviewing your study method. Are you spending too much time on Shooting? Your weakness is that you cannot say no to your friends. You always follow them. Even when Denise calls and talks to 1+ am (okay she doesn't do that but Denise always calls me at wrong times), you also give in to her. Then you have not enough time for yourself. You do not give yourself enough rest after an exam, always sleeping so late!"

ok, something that my mother told me when I told her my marks..

"You need to have more focus. Like me, whenever I do my work and people come and call me, I tell them I'm having a meeting. When people come and ask me for something, I give them a stare, then they know. Then, sms? Don't have to reply so fast one lar. I also got work to do what, why must settle your thing?? Go and die lar."

my father, on focus.

I had another freaky dream today.

I dreamt that... a few classmates and I were in this room. It was dark and spooky, and I think we were preparing for this challenge. The instructors were giving us instructions and a few images were shown on the visualizer screen. We had to collect something... and there was this creature which would kill us. It was a mermaid. It looked harmless in that picture, but it was a sort of de ja vu, I knew that this mermaid was vicious and it has sharp jaws that will tear us apart limb by limb. The de ja vu scene had lots of blood and gore in it.

Desiree and Xiu Hui were beside me. Desiree had this quiet but frightened look on her face as she sat down, and Xiu Hui seemed to be bouncing up and down as she sat. Joyce was in my dream too... and there was also a Nintendo DS?? Okay, random.

The next scene was of us going to this place. It was... sort of a village looking place. and there was this dilapidated hut which I think the challenge was held. It was realllll random, but this junior vietnamese boy from 07IP02 whom I think resembles Anh was in my dream too, and he had this serious expression on his face. Minlu was in my dream too, and all of a sudden that vietnamese boy started throwing stones at Minlu! I was angry, and went forward to stop him. I forgot what happened after that...

The next scene was of me being in the hut. It was not as dilapidated as I thought it was, it was quite posh actually. With a huge stairway which I was standing on. It was a chaotic scene cos everyone was running everywhere and I was simply standing there. Then, there was this though in my head that rang "THAT'S THE KILLER", and I picked up a knife and started slashing someone. I could see the line that I made upon slashing, and this time there WAS blood, but it didn't come out in gushes but simply dripped slowly but in torrents. There was another guy whom I saw, and I identified him as a killer too, and I stabbed him, deep. I remember that scene very well. When I stabbed him, it was difficult as first because I could feel pressure. Then I stabbed him harder downward, and the knife sunk deeper, and it was lodged in his chest. It was as if I was LITERALLY stabbing someone. I could see blood oozing out and..

I woke up.

Scary...

I AM SORRY THAT I HAVE NOT BLOGGED.

Let's start this post on a heavy note. I had weird dreams recently.

One of them was a morbid one. The night before, my sister bought a book on Jack the Ripper. You know who Jack the Ripper is? According to Wikipedia, "Jack the Ripper is an alias given to an unidentified serial killer active in the largely impoverished Whitechapel area and adjacent districts of London, England, in the autumn of 1888." The book was... wordy lol. With pictures of the victims with their eyeballs missing. And one of them with their body totally destroyed. It was horrible. My sister was so traumatised that she decided to staple that page together. Amusing.

little did I expect myself to be like that. The dream was spine-chilling, seriously. I can't remember the entire thing... but I remember I was cutting people's heads off, and it was a sort of perverse excitement when I did that. Strangely, there was no blood. I could remember the scene of a head being presented on my lap, with its neck exposed. The next moment, there was a quick line across it, and yeah, the head was gone. I don't remember a head rolling away though... Strange enough. this is how Jack the Ripper killed his victims. "Each victim's throat was cut, after which her body was mutilated." Fascinating.

The next scene, there was a man's head presented to me. All of a sudden, I think i regained my sanity, and suddenly felt frightened. I shooed the man away from my lap, and he suddenly stood up. I can't remember his face, but I was intimidated by his huge size, and menacing smile which sent me shivering. He took out... this bag. With three weapons inside: A machete, a hammer, and a saw.

 

Well... the saw is something like that, but larger. Anyway, I could spot hints of bloodstains on it. i was really afraid, and he was waving them about like nobody's business. The door to my house was unlocked, and I had a hunch that if he got out of my house, he would be on a rampage killing spree. I told Xiu Lun to get me the key, and replied "Its in the toilet", and she ran off. And I was stuck in the room with that ... MURDERER. I was genuinely freaked out.

Then, I woke up. To my maid's pushings. Thank goodness.

I ate two apples today. yum. And i'm hooked on the song That Thing you do by Wonders when we learnt it during Guitar today. It's our first mass dance song, and it's really nice on the guitar! :D i hope I remember the chords. I think I'm really slack. I spent many hours doing nothing, and I'm going to promise myself I will cut my hair tmr.