Shit, this is bad, I think I'm addicted to the computer.

Here I am, typing away at 0219 in the morning, on the 2nd of September. Yeah, it's xiuluns birthday already.

I feel really hopeless. How can I get hooked so easily? As in, what has the computer got to offer? What has it got to offer that makes me so attracted to it?

Maybe it's because of MSN, the chatting and yakking and laming around.
Maybe it's because of blogger, the daily overview of the day's events.
Maybe it's Runescape, the lousy graphics but yet satisfaction for my oh-so-deprived mind.

If I continue like this, I'm gonna crash for sure.

I really admire those people who can concentrate on their work with the computer screen flashing in front of them. That's impossible for me; in the end, I just end up scrambling over the keyboard, brushing my papers away, and typing to my heart's content. Not even caring if my eye's degree goes up. And yeah, that's pretty serious.

Mum's not exactly pleased. She's nagging at me for days, threatening to switch off the power, and judging from the tempermental person that she is, she really did it. Trust her to be so rash; at least the computer wasn't electrocuted. Nevertheless, it's still my fault that she flares up everytime. I mean, whenever I switch the computer on, that's it for me. I get teleported to another world and its just 2-4h of non-stop staring and ignoring everyone. Complete solitude. Pure bliss.

If only I could do that for shooting...

Sigh, I'm just weak. Why can't I just resist temptations for once? Why can't I be like Minlu, who's friggingly hardworking and uses the computer for academical, benefitial purposes? Why can't I be like Denise, who's impossibly geeky (LOL, that's what I feel) but nonetheless, scores?

I'm just a good-for-nothing, computer addict, who just enjoys chatting on MSN till god-knows-when. I won't be surprised if my degree goes up to 1000 one day. Oh man, I really gotta restrain myself.

EOYs are coming and I'm not panicking. That's just great; I'm gonna die sooner or later. I gotta resolute myself: Lesser MSNs from now on. Screw the bloody computer. Screw myself.

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