just went to chiansiangs blog.













a post.
and its not everyday
that you see a piece of writing











that will get you all sentimental.





all the happy times, they're all in the past.
all the true friends, the one which you treasure most,
they're all history.

its all a facade, everything just an illusion.

the better the school is,
the worse it becomes.

why must it all be like this?
why must this STUDIES create a barrier over us.

i agree with CS man.
its getting harder and harder to make friends.


and its scary.


i think im unsociable.
i think im useless.
i think im just a good for nothing.

im really mindful of other people's comments.
because sometimes they're really stabbing.
and this just makes me more and more introverted.

seriously,
im getting more and more unsociable,
i dunno how to speak up anymore.
i dunno how to speak up for myself.

everythings gone.




today i was feeling q lonely.
i know minlu feels the same way too.
i cant be as sociable as other ppl,
cos im afraid of rejection..

class q quiet during lunch,
and i dunno how to TALK.
i just dunno how to open my BIG MOUTH,
cos i know i will get rejected.



this sucks...





































i despise,
myself.

im sorry for whatever i have done...

他们说： 雨后一定就会天晴了。

但晴天一定会来吗？