....just another emo post.....

SIAN DIAO LAH... I HATE MYSELF FOR MAKING SO MANY MISTAKES DURING THE TRIGO TEST TODAY...

Its not that I didnt study.. Perhaps my method of studying was wrong... Or I was feeling too nervous before the test. Seriously I felt really really nervous, like a premonition of what was gonna happen. Zzzz, it was a horrible, nasty and uncomfortable feeling.

You know that impending doom is gonna occur, just that you don't know when and don't know how to handle it. And the more you think about it the more your fear grows, and the more you want to hide.

but this is a test there's no stopping anything.

Zzzz, my senses can get out of control sometimes. I remember the times I sweared during the whole test, the number of times I felt lost and helpless, the number of times I stoned at the questions not knowing what to do, and even if I tried I got back where I started.

What's worse is the senseless ticking of the clock ahead, making my mind go blank when every second passes...

It sucks, the fact that I can't do anything to fend for myself. Frustrating and Exasperating.

...But I can only blame myself...


........................sry